I've been gone for awhile.
I have been reading a lot of posts to different blogs and posts to different epilepsy websites that describe people with epilepsy as having fear and anxiety about their epilepsy. They wonder when they'll have another seizure or what will my friends think about me when they find out I have epilepsy or they see me have a tonic-clonic seizure.
Maybe I'm lucky, or maybe my friends are better or closer than other peoples friends but I don't have that fear. It's also possible that I can't, or won't, recognize my own fear and anxiety when it's right in front of my face.
Is it possible that the people who complain about their friends being turned off or treating them as less of a person don't really have good friends? I think that is a real possibility. I don't know. But when I'm working with people who have epilepsy trying to help them become a little more involved in life and they complain to me about this type of thing I can't help but think that they just need better friends. More accepting friends. Friends who care about YOU not about what you have or what you are.
I guess I like to do this blog thing but I also don't get to talk with others about whats on my mind. Unless, of course, I'm with them.
Epilepsy does not and should not control your life. Ever. We all need people we can trust and who will forgive us and who we can forgive. Good friends.